Que Es Amor...
Love is... I've listened to that podcast today and I nearly cried. It makes me thing. Maybe there is more. Maybe I just missed it all. I've been praying a lot lately. It's the only thing that I really can do at this point. It's been a while since I've written a proper blog, so let me tell you what's going on:
There have been numerous occasions where things just suck terribly. And it just hurts, ya know? There are days I wish that I didn't get out of bed. I was straightening my hair today. It normally takes about an hour, but today, it was taking longer. I wasn't completely focused on what I was doing. I managed to be listening to Run Kid Run, Search the City, Jonezetta, House of Heroes...you know, the usual. I was dancing around the room, singing my little heart out like I normally do. It was the lightest I felt since being around Tyler. This was actually the lightest I felt on my own without anyone's help in a really long time. I just thought to myself, I wish every day was like this. Then it hit me: we as humans jack our own selves up. Then we want to blame it on everyone and everything else. We scream at God for the stupid mistakes we make and for the compromising situations we put ourselves in, leading us to a bad even happening. Don't even get me started on the accidents that happen around us...all of these things happen, because they were meant to. John 16:33 says, "I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." (NLT) Of course we are going to experience heartache. God said so himself. Whether you're a Christian or not, we all experience it in different doses. Yeah, it bugs us, but it's life. God is there to help us get up when we're down. One of my favorite verses is Psalm 34:18 "If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;
if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath." (The Message) That verse is so true, if you let it be.
Lately, I've been doing a lot of praying as well. I got a few texts from Natalie Grant and watched a few movies and read an article all involving doing random acts of kindness towards strangers. Our hearts are all assaulted at one point, but when you do something for someone else, it makes you feel good. It doesn't matter what it is, it just makes you feel like you've done a good deed and you smile a little wider. I thought I'd give it a try. I've been praying for other people, not just myself. In light of recent events, this is a drastic change for me. I'm always so self centered, to actually do something for someone else on this magnitude is kind of hard to expend. You wouldn't believe some of the stuff that I've been through. After seeing that focusing everything back on me wasn't helping the situation AT ALL, I tried something else. I put down the word "me" and how people could help me, and instead asked how I could help someone else. It was a little hard at first, but after seeing that it was making other people happy, I started to feel that old spark of the real me that I once was. I've tried so hard to be a people pleaser that I never really thought about how to make me better. I know that that last line doesn't make any sense, but go with me on this here...
I'm helping other people and doing things for others because I want to. Not only is this helping me, I'm becoming less self centered and making other people happy as well. This is the biggest change. So now, I'm getting back to my project with the fiercest vengeance you ever did see. I'm going after LGHY with a passion like never before. I have a renewed hope. It took me getting to my lowest point to realise that this was my calling. I do have a purpose. Just watch...want to know what I'm doing differently? I'm making the effort to not take over. I'm just giving it all to God. There is no way that I'm going to just hold this all myself. I know that the impossible feat is possible with Him.
Please, don't think I'm crazy...alright, think I'm crazy all you want. It isn't going to change that I know that this is where I'm supposed to be. This is the me that I was meant to become. I'm finally learning that love is the biggest part of the healing process. Even though I have stopped going to seek "help," I'm still getting help. He is my help. I was meant to do this. I was meant to prowl, encourage, and be that lightening in a bottle I was born. Check out that podcast... It's called "Love is..." by Bryant Underwood under Ethos. It's one of the most amazing messages I ever heard. It's raw, it's real, and it will change your entire outlook. Life sucks, but make it less sucky by not focusing on yourself and more on others. Try accepting love the way God meant it and giving love the way you want it.
There have been numerous occasions where things just suck terribly. And it just hurts, ya know? There are days I wish that I didn't get out of bed. I was straightening my hair today. It normally takes about an hour, but today, it was taking longer. I wasn't completely focused on what I was doing. I managed to be listening to Run Kid Run, Search the City, Jonezetta, House of Heroes...you know, the usual. I was dancing around the room, singing my little heart out like I normally do. It was the lightest I felt since being around Tyler. This was actually the lightest I felt on my own without anyone's help in a really long time. I just thought to myself, I wish every day was like this. Then it hit me: we as humans jack our own selves up. Then we want to blame it on everyone and everything else. We scream at God for the stupid mistakes we make and for the compromising situations we put ourselves in, leading us to a bad even happening. Don't even get me started on the accidents that happen around us...all of these things happen, because they were meant to. John 16:33 says, "I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." (NLT) Of course we are going to experience heartache. God said so himself. Whether you're a Christian or not, we all experience it in different doses. Yeah, it bugs us, but it's life. God is there to help us get up when we're down. One of my favorite verses is Psalm 34:18 "If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;
if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath." (The Message) That verse is so true, if you let it be.
Lately, I've been doing a lot of praying as well. I got a few texts from Natalie Grant and watched a few movies and read an article all involving doing random acts of kindness towards strangers. Our hearts are all assaulted at one point, but when you do something for someone else, it makes you feel good. It doesn't matter what it is, it just makes you feel like you've done a good deed and you smile a little wider. I thought I'd give it a try. I've been praying for other people, not just myself. In light of recent events, this is a drastic change for me. I'm always so self centered, to actually do something for someone else on this magnitude is kind of hard to expend. You wouldn't believe some of the stuff that I've been through. After seeing that focusing everything back on me wasn't helping the situation AT ALL, I tried something else. I put down the word "me" and how people could help me, and instead asked how I could help someone else. It was a little hard at first, but after seeing that it was making other people happy, I started to feel that old spark of the real me that I once was. I've tried so hard to be a people pleaser that I never really thought about how to make me better. I know that that last line doesn't make any sense, but go with me on this here...
I'm helping other people and doing things for others because I want to. Not only is this helping me, I'm becoming less self centered and making other people happy as well. This is the biggest change. So now, I'm getting back to my project with the fiercest vengeance you ever did see. I'm going after LGHY with a passion like never before. I have a renewed hope. It took me getting to my lowest point to realise that this was my calling. I do have a purpose. Just watch...want to know what I'm doing differently? I'm making the effort to not take over. I'm just giving it all to God. There is no way that I'm going to just hold this all myself. I know that the impossible feat is possible with Him.
Please, don't think I'm crazy...alright, think I'm crazy all you want. It isn't going to change that I know that this is where I'm supposed to be. This is the me that I was meant to become. I'm finally learning that love is the biggest part of the healing process. Even though I have stopped going to seek "help," I'm still getting help. He is my help. I was meant to do this. I was meant to prowl, encourage, and be that lightening in a bottle I was born. Check out that podcast... It's called "Love is..." by Bryant Underwood under Ethos. It's one of the most amazing messages I ever heard. It's raw, it's real, and it will change your entire outlook. Life sucks, but make it less sucky by not focusing on yourself and more on others. Try accepting love the way God meant it and giving love the way you want it.
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