Brace Yourselves...

You could fry an egg on my head, that's how heated I am. With myself, nonetheless. I can't believe I did this. I just...I'm just so upset. I can't believe anything anymore. I trust no one. It's kinda hard when there's two sides. Right now, I trust T-Dub over anyone else (although, when he says things like, "instructions are for women," it makes me wanna slap him). I don't even understand what the hell is going on with me right now. I mean, seriously... I think the best of everyone. Or so I did, and now I just can't. I really wish that I was better. I really do. No one ever knows the entire situation of a person. What's gonna happen when I ruin this? What am I gonna do when I ruin everything good I have going for me? T-Dub is the only really good thing I got. My parents, sure, do whatever they can to make me happy. Some days, though, I just wanna be left alone. Some moments, I need to be lonely. Like now...I may not be an emo child on the outside, but on the inside, I'm hurting and blinding myself with stupidity.
I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I can't stand it. There's the bridge...time to look over and brace myself for the dive...